I don’t remember crying so much over someone I only felt I knew but never really did.
This week, Glee finally put out its much awaited and similarly dreaded tribute episode for the late Cory Monteith. It was honestly one of the hardest 44 minutes of television that I had to go through, and I am a known crier for all sob stories.
Cory’s passing is one big Hollywood spectacle. But despite his tragic and sudden loss, a lot of hecklers wondered out loud, why the big deal? Why the tribute at the Emmy‘s and now for an entire episode in his memory? I can see where they were coming from. Cory was young. He was no Michael Jackson or Princess Diana. He was a budding actor with a short resume, treading the gray line between misfit and cool in Hollywood, much the same as his character quarterback-cum-acapella-singer Finn Hudson. But I guess in death, we do not look at the person’s list of achievements and measure our grieving from there. We look at the person he was, the kindness he emanated, the charm he exuded, the little good things he spread around. We wonder at the demons he faced, and are saddened that the demons won. We look at the people he loved, and know even just a tiny little bit of the grief they bear, because we have carried the same weight ourselves.
I look at how he has barely breached 30 years, and I grieve for him, and I grieve for the person I lost at the same age he was. I grieve that much the same as my personal dearly departed, Finn and Cory will only be alive again in pictures, in videos and in songs. Beyond that, as Sue said in defeat, “there is just nothing.”
Track list for Glee Season 5 Episode 3: The Quarterback
“Seasons of Love,” featuring Amber Riley, Naya Rivera, Chris Colfer, Mark Salling, Harry Shum Jr., and Glee‘s current cast.
“I’ll Stand by You,” featuring Amber Riley and Glee‘s current cast
“Fire and Rain,” featuring Chord Overstreet, Kevin McHale, and Glee’s current cast
“If I Die Young,” featuring Naya Rivera
“No Surrender,” featuring Mark Salling
“Make You Feel My Love,” featuring Lea Michele
Photo and video credits to Glee. Cory Monteith (May 11, 1982 – July 13, 2013)